AHAHAHAHAHA, PILLSBURY GRANDMOTHER!!! TOLD YOU SO!!! horses?

Mum couldn't remember what movie i wanted while she was out, so she got Shaft (can you dig it?) She liked it, Daddy fell asleep- rather thought it would be the other way around, but eh. it was better than i remembered, from Erik and my wild movie-watching summer ('98)- that summer we did Shaft, Indy (all 3), that one about Communist China ("Red Square"? something like that), some anime ("Vampire Hunter D" which DIDN'T SUCK THAT MUCH, THANK YOU SAKTI [and your card's pinned up on puter], and "Junk Boy" OH MY GOD i was embarassed, Willy was there too... hm... kinda reminds me of some people now... BUT ANYWAY...). bunch of others. And of course, the trusty standby, Nachos and fake cheese. :) I miss those times, they were so fun. i used to go through like a litre of milk a day. :) erik's mom was such an amazing cook, i miss her so much.

When I was a girl, my mom and I we always talked, and I picked flowers everywhere that I walked... And I could always cry, now even when I'm alone I seldom do, and I have lost some kindness, but I was a girl too, and you were just like me, and I was just like you...

For the first time in a really LONG time, feeling young :) innocent-young. Still too much weight-knowledge for my tastes, but feeling young and happy. Like, as if I don't have a requirement to be mature. To be fettered and shackled and "Supposed To." :) none of that. my room is clean and I have nothing to do until wednesday but slack off. christmas always brings new reading material which is good cuz i'm out. Technically of course i could start reading "History of the world in 10.5 chapters" but when it's a school book it's so much harder. :) but good-feeling. singing "Suzanne" at the top of my lungs :) - "Suzanne, ooooohhoooohooooh, you're all that I wanted of a girl..." :) that was fun, that was such a Last Year song... :) ah Mallrats... so good, so good... "There she was, like double cherry pie, yeah there she was, like disco super-fly..." Marcy Playground's playing now... heh, such a james song, especially "Who's that casting devious stares in my direction, yeah mama this surely is a dream...." :) it was so fitting. :) just HAPPY! Everything's in balance. I don't have bad feelings for anyone, not even my poor beloved Laurent who's just getting over chickenpox, sucks ass when you get'em old, I did in level 2. :) Got nice clean PJs (well, OCA sweatpants and U of T fuzzy sweater), and nice clean sheets, the dark green ones i got for xmas a couple of years ago, and a new duvet cover, and a tidy room, and everyone's xmas presents in a corner, and all my spikes hanging off my candelabra which has candles in, and Da's dragons on the chimney wall (i'll take a pic of it on monday!!!! :) YAY!!), with the Chriss-soft-porn pics next to them, and the pink ribbony-bowy-thingy she made on the wall, on the top is the huge picture-frame i found in RJ with the stein's pics and daddy's grad pic and a pic of tweetie, like i said earlier, i'll eventually replace the twee pic by the one of chriss and james and i which i KNOW is in my camera, but i haven't got it developped yet. Next to that is the poster-spraypaint painting that guy at harbourfront did of the planets and stuff, and above that is the postcard Olivier sent me this summer from paris (he always sends me postcards, he's so sweet!! I'm going to go somewhere this year just so I can send him one. Bermuda would be nice...), and the photo-tinting pic i did in level 3 art of the sitting-room bay window. and the car jamie put in that bag of candy he gave me, that's stuck on with stick-tack. and my grad tie, of course. they're all on the chimney. I've been thinking, what I might do is either get a big sheet of metal, I'm sure daddy could find me one, nail it to the chimney-wall, and use it to stick digital pics to (with magnets), and i have magnetic poetry stuff so that would be cool too :); that or string up a couple of clothes' lines and pin pics to them with clothes-pins, like in the darkroom. might as well use all the space I can. there's a whole 5 feet in this 10-foot ceiling room i'm not using... =p

need to get material to make the capes for the play. do that between xmas and new year. with michelle if possible. and chriss. i need people with better taste and/or ideas than me.