Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand
But I keep living this day like the next will never come...
Let me know the way
Before there's hell to pay
Leave me room to lay the law and let me go
I gotta make a play
To make my lover stay
What would an angel say
The devil wants to know...
frustrated. the words don't exist for what's bothering me. it's as if all my emotions and hormones and everything are starting a revolution and i wasn't even consulted on whether i was the enemy or not. Fighting with parents and friends and others and even Neopets is beating my ass. I need a pet or a hobby or something. Daddy said i could see if Seneca or Ryerson or somewhere had any summer courses that might interest me, which is really kind of them, but i get the feeling it's in this "well you've slacked so far, so the rest of the summer's gonna be a write-off, so you might as well do something constructive."
And for some reason, Tweetie's death is hitting me now. I keep crying.
Saw 6 baby racoons during dinner.
And you... I don't know. I worry. About you, about wasting your time, about being too clingy, about not being clingy enough. It's a strange state for me. Sure, I worry about my friends, but not much about their futures. I suppose cuz they involve me less. I suppose because they're not in the same position. But fighting with you bothers me tremendously... as always, only parents and boyfriends can make me cry.
But we'll survive. It's what we do.
Help me cuz I'm falling out of grace
I hang my head and hide my face
I don't know what it is, I just feel out of place
Like horses in the city...
But they don't seem frightened
As the cars go speeding by
So why am I so terrified to close my eyes tonight...?
I'm just afraid there's no time, no time
This time...
Readin'
Listenin' to
Thinkin' about
Most recently I was 
