YES, ALL my friends are fucking here for is to fuck up YOUR friends, jesus christ you've nailed it well done have a fucking MEDAL. I am not responsible for anyone else and I can't help anyone's choice, or anyone's personality.
Been reading old icq history. i should stop doing that.
There's this huge chunk of me that just wants to shake him, yell "Wake the fuck up can't you see what I did for you, you short-sighted twatwaffle?!", let him drop and walk away. I guess i'm not totally over him, or i wouldn't still be writing about him. but it makes me so ANGRY. I would have thought that i deserve more than total silence. That may look like what i'm giving now, but it's open silence, i don't refuse or be rude, i have called, when chriss said things were going badly, when dakk said things were going badly. i tried. I haven't shut out, only stepped back. Jesus Christ, would it kill you to say "thank you, i haven't forgotten you exist, even if you're not in my life now"? Jesus fucking H christ.
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