So, Ken Kesey died on Saturday. Those of you who have known me since grade 6 might recall my obsession with the book "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest," starting my whole fascination with insanity. I feel droopy, kinda of like I did when Douglas Adams died. He was a good author.
Talked to Erik last night for about an hour. It was really good to hear from him, nearly like old times (well, nothing like old times, really, but you have to admit- there's no-one quite like Erik...) Like he said, "It's weird, you're a portal into a whole different side of me." I don't think he's that to me, I don't think I've changed that much. In some respects, with having lived the high life, the booze, the boys, the yucky yucky work, I have changed a lot. But I'm still me-like. I haven't changed beyond my own recognition. For example, I'm still perfectly capable of talking with Erik. Uhh... ok, that would be hard to understand if you hadn't known our (non-existent) relationship over the last 3 years. What I mean is, I can still pick up where we left off before we were going out, like nothing's changed. He has changed tho. Not as bitter. Still funny. A lot more... wise? Is that the word? Experienced? Enlightened, nearly. A lot more intelligent.
Times change; it's not something I can stop. But sometimes I wish I could just hold on to the good parts, and let the bad parts correct themselves. There are some things I hope never change (I love you, both of you.) If we could freeze moments in time, we all would... but I do what I can...
We Do What We Can- Sheryl Crow
Downstairs they're playing Kenton
He said
And isn't it good
Downstairs he's playing Kenton
He says
And it's good to be alive
Is this the end of the modern world
The procession on the TV screen
Downstairs it's quiet
And he says
But it's good to be alive |
Readin'
Listenin' to
Thinkin' about