stalling on doing yet another essay. but it's ok, it's about homeopathy, i can write about that.
james is begging for a "deal".... ehehehehehehe! ;) sorry jamesie, but it's gonna be expensive!
really looking forward to comedy tonight. haven't been to stein's in ages. well, a week, but still...
i don't wanna rock DJ, cuz you're makin' me feel so nice, I don't wanna stop DJ, cuz you're keepin' me up all night...
:) that strange feeling i've had for a couple of weeks, the sex-disgust, is going away. i'm pretty happy about that, i was worried. just hope we don't swing to the other end of the spectrum ;)
Still reading old Other diary entries... good and bad. i was pretty spastic in the summer, but you can see the progression, more and more depressed... but it started earlier than i thought. early may. i wish i'd tried to fix it then, instead of letting the resentment build. no, not resentment, it wasn't resentment that got me in the end. it was loneliness and desperation. i wanted so much to matter. but best not to dwell on these things, we can't change the past. if i could? i don't know what would happen...
meh. water under the bridge. i enjoy seeing happy couples, cuz one day, i'll be back there. :) but my tower is jsut fine for me right now. i feel safe in that i haven't lost myself, given myself over to someone else's care, that i don't have to worry about anyone cheating on me, or misunderstanding me... the closest i have to that kind of relationship is chriss and she couldn't misunderstand me if she tried. interesting exercise tho, deliberate misunderstanding. :) that's semiotics.
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