Feeling more (continuously) depressed than I have in a long time. In fact, about a year. In fact, very much the same headspace- not wanting to quit because it would give (respective) Her pleasure, but unable to stand it. I'm afraid of work now. I get depressed every day. I stay depressed. And before, I've always been able to eat my depression away, but now I can't, and I dick around aimlessly. I have a BIG essay due Friday, and I don't know how to approach it. Feel like I can't do anything anymore.
Seriously want to stab Jenn with something. Maybe something ironic, like a chocolate Easter Bunny or a Maya Angelou bookmark. Trust me: rage would make it sharp enough.
2:30pm
"Trendy Suede Clogs". Am I the only one who finds this amusing?
11:49pm
Feeling better, if only because I had a decent day by avoiding Jenn and Neal.
Start at Best Buy tomorrow. Scared, but at least I can quit that too if I make a fool of myself.
Email worth saving, from Sharon:
Each year the Washington Post's Style Invitational asks readers to take any word from the dictionary, alter it by adding, subtracting, or changing only one letter and supply a new definition.
Here are the 2002 winners:
Intaxication: Euphoria at getting a tax refund, which lasts until you realize it was your money to start with.
Reintarnation: Coming back to life as a hillbilly.
Foreploy: Any misrepresentation about yourself for the purpose of getting laid.
Giraffiti: Vandalism painted very, very high.
Sarchasm: The gulf between the author of sarcastic wit and the person who doesn't get it.
Inoculatte: To take coffee intravenously when you are running late.
Hipatitis: Terminal coolness.
Osteopornosis: A degenerate disease. (This one got extra credit).
Karmageddon: It's like, when everybody is sending off all these really bad vibes, right? And then, like, the Earth explodes and it's like, a serious bummer.
Glibido: All talk and no action.
Dopeer Effect: The tendency of stupid ideas to seem smarter when they come at you rapidly.
And, the winner of the Washington Post's Style Invitational:
Ignoranus: A person who's both stupid and an asshole.
12:16am
Pisces is swimming in muddy waters. (The stars apologize for yet another "fish" metaphor, it gets lonely and dull up there in the constant night skies.) Clearer streams are ahead for you as you move into different surroundings. This should bring you a whole new positive outlook on life, love and work. Everything seems better when you like your surroundings, and you've been in unpeaceful environments for far too long. You've been going against the current, but you're almost home.
This sounds good, eh?
Can't believe how great it is that C's back on ICQ again. Feel like I've been silent for way too long.
Readin' "Moving Pictures" (Pratchett)
Listenin' to "Jamie" (Weezer)
Thinkin' about laundry
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